♥ Thinking of you <3 ♥

23 nov 11

2011-11-22T23:42:00.001-08:00

baby this post just for you.
sorry to hurt you once again.
hope you still carry on wearing the ring.
i still wearing but i put on my necklance.
i still love you but then your changes reali make me scare ):
your this type of changes i don wann.
sigh. you broke it.
my neck will alway have our ring.

iloveyou silly ~! <3

14 november 2011

2011-11-14T01:24:00.000-08:00

during the last post till this current post.
we been quarrel alot.
i already control my temper and not start the war.
in the end start.
i just don know why he like suddenly change alot.
he alway at ahma house and he don wann care me le.

currently at my boyfriend house.
beening bully by him.
sliently tears and he don know at all.
few more days he will be in NS le.
i think i will miss him to the max le.
sight.
2 weeks cannot meet at all. ):
should be all le.

11/10/2011

2011-10-11T06:02:00.000-07:00

11 October 2011

it's been long after i post it again.

during tat time and now i found out this guy call melvin.
first impression toward him still okay.
after go out with him i find him quit joker.
but who knows what will happened after stead ?
i don even dare to think this type of question.
example like today .
i today don wann sms him.
i waiting for him to start the sms.
but he did not.
i wait dao 2 plus he sms.
but hor first sms is who the hell is this person ?!
will let me explain.
1 of my classmate call long min posted on my wall saying where my melvin chua ?
so i reply at home.
is been long since tat post le.
and yet today he sms and fierce me lor. ):
i sianz half.
totally no mood do any work or whatever le.
you don even sms me see where am i or what am i doing but is who the hell is he ?
-.-
now i don know what to do with this type of problem lor.
and next week you are going in NS le! ):
and lastly i can say tat i reali love you. you cant feel dao than too bad ar.
iloveyou baby ! <3

15 september 2011

2011-09-14T19:25:00.000-07:00

hello all (:

after so long i decided to come back and post on it.
it feel like my blog already dead le ):
its been long after i last post it.

during the last post and this month.
i been busy doing sch work and homework.
project project always.

its been 7 month and i still missing you ?
am i stupid or silly ?
what can i get away of your memory ?
you items tat you gave me still at my house. the sweet and the doreamon. ):

well i come back just wann update my blog and make abit alive nia.
tat all.
will post again when i free.
cya <3

27/06/11

2011-06-27T05:58:00.000-07:00

back for posting after so long.

i still having my sch holidays.
this few days i busy with my work.
my 2 fingers were injured within 1 week ):
it hurts.
i just wann you to care about me.
but you will not understand how much i love you.
after you say tat words out from your mouth.
you're the the first who brk the promise.
i should be angry but yet i didnt.
but i still love you as last time ?
just tat the percent have drop.
you will nv know how much i miss you ?
you will nv know how much i will you would text me .
but you just cant!? than what do you expect from me ?
there is chance when you are free.
free from all your project.
i think i cant be.
cause you still have year 2 and year 3.
sigh.
i still cherish every single of our single moments.
i still cherish the rose tat you gave me, the ear ring.
but now i still cant give you answer. hope you understand it.
sorry . iloveyou <3.

5/6/2011

2011-06-05T06:40:00.001-07:00

5 june 2011

back for posting after so long.
sigh tml having exam le .
somemore is ef?
shag ttm can de lor.
sigh.
after wed and i need to work le.
work as mothercare, their salary not tat bad quite high.
1h $7 on weekdays
1h $7.50 on weekend.
not bad leh.
i gonna Work fro 10 to 6 le.
anyone can find me for lunch if you wann but before tat text me.
i don know what time is my lunch.
sorry if you wait for me too long ?! (:
well i got nth to say le .
should end here ba. (:
rmb to tagged with your name (:

24 may 2011

2011-05-24T05:21:00.000-07:00

24 may 2011

thanks for everything.
thanks for the happy memory tat you gave me.
i know what to do le.
gratz tat you are free.
i will move on don worry.
thanks for the flower and cookies tat you gave me.
i reali cherish those happy memory.
hope you find 1 better gal to be wif you ba.
take care.
don alway rush on your project dao forget to eat hao bu hao.
have a proper meal.
sigh i don know what to post le.
sigh i having giddy yet tml have to go back sch le.
have to study hard le.
few more fews to my english CA le ):
tat all for today.
take care ):
thanks for reading my blog

23may 2011

2011-05-23T05:37:00.000-07:00

23 may 2011

is been long since i last post it.

i failed in another rs again.
i guess i not fit to be in rs with others.
i guess tat no 1 wann me again.
ppl think tat i a hongster.
all thank to you.
once a hongster alway a hongster.
you are back from your study trip i so happy but what use ?
as usual so busy.
forget it .
i might as well give up on this rs.
i don wann to hold on it again.
is veri tired.
hope you find 1 gf which is better than me ba.
once you melt my heart i reali veri happy.
now my heart was lock.
i don think i will in rs again ba.
i don believe ever again.
all thanks to you.
sigh.
afterall i still miss you.
but got what use ?
alway busy doing your project, church all that ?
i have this in my mind before.
i just hope tat you would give up on your church just to pei me.
i just i was tat selfish.
but in the end i nv say out.
coz i don wann you say me selfish or what ?
sigh.
i don know what to post le.
was no feeling well for the past few days.
i don know why ?
sigh.
the flower i still kept it even we broke up. i still miss you! ):
hope you got read my blog.

6 may 2011

2011-05-06T06:24:00.000-07:00

6 may 2011

did not post for the past few days due to busy.
sigh.
don know what to post.
today went to bukit batok for movie.
went to watch Fast & Furious 5 it was nice.
well. i lazy to post le :p
tat should be all for now ba.
bye!

27 april 2011

2011-04-27T02:39:00.000-07:00

27 april 2011

is been long time since i post le ba.
this few days don know wat to post about.
i been shag after since my holiday finish.
is just tat a branch of friend of my. beening friendly toward me.
after tat gal came into our class. all tat friend out of sudden change.
i just have no idea what have happened.
well i could say tat tuesday and wednesday recess i been siting alone at canteen.
did not eat anything caurse not hungry.
i do not wish to say tat again ):
is been hurting my heart. ;sob.

next. is been 4 month after i broke you till now i still single.
i think i have broke my record.
4month without stead.
4month without contact you. ):
but why does your face keep on appeal infornt of me.
tat is 2 to 3 guy face look the same as you.
so does the body as well.
haiz.
i think i have forget you le.
i still don know you still will come back and read anot.
its been 4month after i enter ITE.
my life became friendless ):
tat should be all.
last long and hope you jio dao her (:

19/3/11

2011-03-19T08:02:00.000-07:00

19 march 11

today went to jb.
just back from jb.
at first is 6.45 need wake up. but in the 7.
coz veri sleepy.
well custom did not jam too.
so still okay.
reach there around 8 plus.
went to this shopping mall the carpark.
first time in my life i fall down at the carpark!
WTF! my both hand so pain.
ate mac for breakfast.
than shop around at other place.
slpt in the car for alwhile coz veri tired.
ate marry brown for lunch.
than ate seafood for dinner.
did not eat rice. :x
well i think that should be all for today.

17/3/11

2011-03-17T03:10:00.000-07:00

sorry i did not post lately.

been busy.

this few days i been watching japan news.

i been thinking what if i were at there ?

i just hope i would be wash away with Tsunami was tat good ?

if not the buliding collapse and fall at me ?

if it would be good if i were been bomb ?

so tat i wont live in this world anymore.

i been tired and i feel like crying.

will there any 1 be there for me ?

i guess nope ba.

last sat been to jb for 1 day trip.

i reali try damm hard to forget tat r/s tat feeling.

after you left.

i gave out alot of them my number.

alot of them ask me for stead yet i rejected them.

why ?

coz i just cant FKING forgot tat feeling in my heart.

and why should i accept other ppl when my heart say no ?!

i not like you.

after we broke.

you have new stead le.

gratz.

i happy for you.

what friend are to meant ?

can any one tell me ?

at first i have 1 branch of friend of my.

not long they started to ignore me?

and now?

haiz i don feel like talking about tat le.

after you left i have been telling myself.

he left you because he don love you anymore le.

why should you continue waiting for him le?

why not accept others ?

and yet my answer is yes, maybe i stubborn ?

i just like to continue to wait.

continue to flash back the memory which we went through.

those thick and thin things.

those tears which i just drop for you.

i think tat worth it.

maybe you don think so.

maybe you don know after i knowing ur illness i been crying for few days.

maybe you don know after we broke up i been crying for fews days too.

so does my heart bleed too.

somemore is bleed much.

i guess you should know i use my phone tu act like elaine and a guy to text and ask you for one and only answer.

what is the answer due to the broke up?

i just reali want to know.

but yet you still ignore me.

nvm ar. i guess i should be use tu it le ba.

after you leave i think i have change.

totally change.

i sometime will make up go sch.

so does my attitude.

i will be going in jb again on sat.

that should be all.

sorry this few days been busy.

my CA all crew already le.

till now than post.

hope you still continue reading...

For xingyu! <3

cheer up.

don coz of him you go do silly things.

thanks for cheering me up when i broke up.

now my turn.

i just wann cheer you up.

he not worth for you seriously.

he does not know tat feeling of how hurt tat you have been.

i sure tat 1 day you will found tat guy which will love you with his whole hearted.

remember in this world tat is lazy gal but not ugly gal! (:

sorry if is too short.

i just wann cheer you up.

one day meet up soon okay!?

9/3/11

2011-03-09T00:57:00.001-08:00

9 march 11

you should know today is wat date.

happy ex 3 month anniversary wif you.

is been 2 month after we broke up.

see i just don understand why i still remember this date sia ?

haiz.

tml i having customer service CA.

i still cant remember the format.

ate the doc ytd gave me the med.

my stomach keep on aching.

is pain.

ytd did know eat dinner as usual.

don know why.

just now i was awake from this dream which is you.

i just don know why.

i don know how tu explain.

sorry.

sorry that i should not fall for you.

sorry that i hurt you.

sorry that i love you.

8/3/11

2011-03-08T01:55:00.000-08:00

8 march 11

today did not went to sch.

coz i sick.

ytd nite i vomited 2 time.

and midnite 1+ i vomited again.

did not slp well.

veri hard for me to slp.

having fever while crying.

giddy make me more hot.

2+ went back to slp again.

7 plus wake up again.

8 went down to cresent.

went to hl clinic at 8.30

during tat time while waiting.

i look like 1 dead fish.

at there stare at the wall.

while the number skip. x.x

the doc give me 2 day mc.

as he say my stomach too much oily food le.

than nv go toilet as often x.x

lolx!

will you sms me again ?

haiz.

i don think you will ba.

tat should be all ba.

7/3/11

2011-03-07T02:24:00.000-08:00

7march 11

back from bathing.

now i feel like vomiting.

OMG!

i just don know what had happen to me this few days.

stomach not well for few days yet i still eat chill. :x

cough not tat good. yet i still cough without eating med. :x

fever , flu , headache not good too but yet i did not eat anything for breakfast , lunch and dinner.

i just don know what i been thinking sia.

haiz.

stupid me!

i told myself for million of time he have forget you and let you go le.

but why i just cant forget le ?

stubborn me!

seriously FML!

haiz.

ca are coming le.

did not study much for it too.

coz i veri stress.

i just have no idea what i stress about sia?!

haiz.

7/3/11

2011-03-07T01:57:00.000-08:00

7 march 11

ytd thank for smsing me.

i was veri happy during tat time.

went back to sch take my testiomal.

i did not know tat teacher wrote so long about me. ;shy.

as today teacher let us go early.

coz our cs teacher nv come.

so our time all push front.

and its end at 11.

so went bishan tu wait for my friend togather go back hss de.

at first he say 12 in the end 1 x.x wth!

so went tu bishan wif my other friend.

he say he like me.

i jitao tio stunt.

is like i jitao nth to say.

and keep on kann bully by him. wth!

gonna end here le.

my mummy back and i havent bath!

6/3/11

2011-03-06T05:35:00.000-08:00

6 march 11

today morning went down to cresent eat breakfast as usual wif my mummy.

went back do some housework.

12 went tu sengkang there.

discuss about my ahgong thing.

haiz.

shag.

i reali don know wat to do.

this few days reali having nitemare.

i just wann you msg me.

but i think cant.

too bad.

haiz.

now my head abit seh seh le.

haiz.

tat should be all ba.

4/3/11

2011-03-04T01:04:00.000-08:00

4 march 2011

haiz.

what should i do?

this few day been unhappy ?

why ?

coz alot of problem had happen to my family so as my r/s.

1st is my ah gong.

he been sick cny untill now.

why ?

he had throat cancer. 4 stage le. ):

after knowing the result i saw my mother cry.

i just wann do smth for her but wat can i do ?

i just need to be a good gal but not caurses alot of problem.

next is maverick x.x

thursday meet maverick.

he say wann meet me.

so i went down to find him.

reach his house.

out of sudden he hug me.

i shock dao.

next he wanted to kiss me but he cant.

coz i push him away.

make his nose pain :x

but i think he just wann play.

so i not tat easy fall in tat trap again.

third.

is been a month after we break.

i though i could forget about you.

but i guess i cant make it.

why ?

coz those memory keep on flush back throught my mind.

did not slp well this few days.

been nitemare, leg cramp, stomach cramp and vomit.

i just had no idea wat caurse this.

haiz.

i guess you have forget about me le ba.

maverick say you have sch camp.

i happy tat you went back to guai kia life.

i hope you wont create trouble.

i hope you mantian your illness.

i hope you have your proper meal

i hope you get great marks

and lastly hope you find a stead.

if so. i wish you both last long (:

and lastly.

1 of my friend ask me this question.

why am i single ?

why not attach ?

so i reply this.

beening single no good ?

why need in r/s ?

in the end beening hurt alway are girl.

for what in r/s ?

just wann a quite place to realx.

i just wann forget this HURTFUL r/s memory!

is it tat hard ?

i see you have been having fun.

i see you have forget but not me!

i been stress for the ca.

ur holidays are coming.

so do my as well after ur holiday.

haiz tat should be all ba. ):

1/3/11

2011-02-28T20:54:00.000-08:00

1 march 11

it's been long since i post le.

this few day my luck was not tat good.

it's been long after you left.

i started to forget about you le.

27 feb you call me i feel happy.

but in the end you say is call wrong number.

after tat maverick sms me x.x

i was thinking isit maverick use ur phone to call me.

i guess so.

but i don dare to text you.

i scare you don wann reply my text.

i scare you hate me.

i scare you will ingnore me.

i scare your reply.

i just don know why ):

been thinking why maverick text me sia.

in the end he wann me to meet him and slack x.x

should end here first ba.

coz now i at sch using the com (:

24/2/11

2011-02-24T04:14:00.000-08:00

24 feb 11

today almost late for class.

7.50+ reach bishan.

i qickly walk toward sch!

today nth happened as the lesson went smooth.

just now went to senja to meet this person call john.

how dare he late!

let me wait dao veri long !

he still okay ar.

he still know how to tell his joke.

after tat to bukit panjang plaza than to lot 1

we just keep on walk in the aircon room.

he keep on disturb me lor!

wth!

out of sudden poke me than tab on my shoulder

just wann me tio shock but i not tat easy tio shock whenever i see him coming near.

he keep on looking at me make me feel so shy.

he say whenever he look at me he wann pinch my chick.

than i quickly cover it.

he at there laugh.

wth!

keep on smoke!

but better than him.

i think i forget you le.

you can don need to hide away from me le.

i wont bother you anymore.

i wont text you anymore.

i wont stalk you anymore.

haiz.

his phone battery flat le.

if not can text.

wonder where he now ? ):

having fun today wif him.

23/2/11

2011-02-23T02:17:00.000-08:00

23 feb 11

today efc role play were scarely.

teacher say i have no eye contact wif her.

coz during the role play she talk to me but i just face my friend.

i don dare face her.

if not i will nervous and forget wat to say le.

today teacher treat us eat sticky.

i eat dao sianz.

than wann vomit.

today first time sleep in cs class.

and suddenly no strenght.

wann toh mai toh like tat.

in the end toh alwhile than wake up.

today end class around 3.30pm (:

than faster go home slp but in the end nv slp dao.

coz hair wet wet. =.=

later got headache than mummy will nag at me again.

i think should be all for today ba.

22/2/11

2011-02-22T00:00:00.000-08:00

22 feb 11

this few day i been reading 1 of the couple blog.

coz of their stead is my friend.

so whenever i feel lonely or feel sad i will go read their blog.

after reading i will keep on thinking about you and i the rs.

i know we cant be the same as last time le.

i know.

i been deleting ur sms ur photo in my phone and my album.

but i just cant forget about you.

what should i do ?

who can tell me what he has been doing this few day ?

tml will be my efc role play.

i just cant do it w/o ur support.

the memory keep on playback.

what should i do.

haiz.

i totally no idea what i do wrong and yet been hurt by you again.

haiz.

tat all.

22/2/11

2011-02-21T16:40:00.000-08:00

22 feb 11

been busy this few days

coz sat and sun been to sgh to visit my ahgong.

hope his fine.

hope is false alarm.

today is tuesday.

i don need to go to sch later.

why ?

coz we did well on friday and we ran under the rain during cross country.

so teacher decided to let us to on leave.

today i don noe why i suddenly dream dao you sia.

dream dao i and you .

at first i don noe why i at ur house bathing =.=

than after tat you and i playing veri happily.

than i quickly ran to ur room.

i no idea why.

haiz.

suddenly you like ingore me le.

you totally don wann know me le.

totally don wann text me le.

totally block me at facebook le.

haiz.

after woke up from tat dream i totally no strenght le.

no idea why.

haiz.

well tat all ba.

18/2/11

2011-02-18T04:01:00.000-08:00

18 feb 11

today cross country went veri good.

but i not tat good.

today 3h of free period coz all the teacher did not came.

so i slpt for 2hours. x.x

after tat 2.38 than start the crosss country.

few min boy started to run.

few min later it rain heavily.

few boy come back and is all wet.

after tat is our gal turn to run.

while runing tat time the memory flash back.

while runing i been thinking i should not fall just like tat.

as it rain too.

end up went to toilet change to my polo tee and i started to ahchew le.

end up i sick again.

coz of teacher .

it rain and they wann us to run under the rain. x.x

end up 25 x.x

but did not know that our class team get first! wohoo!

IOK the best <3

we text mrs tahir say we did not get and prize.

we just wann her get shock of wat we get for her.

even though you are gone.

but still i still the same as last time.

now i wann eat med le.

tat all for now!

bye.

17/2/11

2011-02-17T05:01:00.000-08:00

17 feb 11

today is 2 week 3 day le.

thanks for almost 2 month.

almost everyday you did pei me text and call me.

thanks alot.

and thanks alot after we brk you still got read my blog for 2 week 2day le.

but now i don think you still wann see any more.

but still i will continue post.

haiz.

i don know what happened to ur facebook.

maybe you delete ur facebook or you block me to view me.

haiz.

you reali got tat hate me ma ?

haiz. nvm ar since you let go of this story.

i better stop thinking about it then!

tml is our sch cross country this few day didnt eat much.

today lunch suddenly eat while walking fast my stomach hurts!

and went home my thumbs hurts alot coz i play wif tat things.

i got a cut on it.

guess no 1 will know how pain am i know.

i feel like ending this thing rite now!

i veri stress this few days.

haiz.

i think should be tat all ba.

last farewell my one and onli love one.

take care then ):

16/2/11

2011-02-16T04:01:00.000-08:00

16 feb 11

back for posting as i promise you i will continue post my blog.

since you wann go back ur past life than go ba.

i ownself did went back too.

now every nite did not eat my dinner.

i just wann you to concern about me nia.

isit tat wrong ?

yea maybe i not worth for you.

maybe weiting is worth for you ba.

cross country is just this friday.

did not eat anything hope i wont faint tat easy.

and hope i wont go hospital tat easy too.

as you say you are iron man.

than i should be superwomen le. :D

today lesson should be end at 4.

suddenly teacher need to go for the graduation cermony for last year patch.

so 1 of my subject lesson cancel the lesson.

so do my other teacher cancel too.

if not have to wait till 2 than start lesson.

so today end at 11.

at first went to j8 with my some of my best friend.

after tat they say wann go AMK there.

so we take train to there.

we reach there we eat mac.

x.x

over beijing tat i 2 days eat KFC x.x

well.

after eating mac went to 1 of the friend house.

they started to play swimming/ mj

it mean majong.

i wanted to play de. but i still don noe how to play.

so i sit down there watch them play.

i watch dao blur le.

play dao half way his parent come back.

after alwhile we went down play bb.

but i sit down there watch them play.

same as you tat time sit down there watch you play too.

reali miss tat day. ):

they play dao half way suddenly it rain.

i did not run i just walk.

i just wish i could sick.

so tat you would come company me.

but i guess you would not.

you mind as well pei tat weiting better than me rite ?

haiz. i don noe what should i post le.

i onli know tat today and ytd is suddenly rain when my friend and i walking to the MRT station.

and bath late late ! (:

14/2/11

2011-02-14T03:48:00.001-08:00

14 feb 11

today is the day.

but you not beside me anymore ):

haiz.

today went to sch didnt study much.

coz today my sch having cca roadshow.

all the central ite came to our sch.

is damm crowded.

happy 2 weeks of being single.

how great can it be ?

started from now i reali need to rush for my project le.

it will make me more stress.

i hope you are there for me and support me.

i scare i rush too much i will end up in hospital.

this few days i not tat good.

after sch went back from home keep on slp.

i just don noe why will like this de.

haiz.

stomach not tat good oso.

keep on gastic pain.

what should i do ?

hope you can just msg me?!

can msg cause your life ?

well i can say is tat all.

just hope to see dao ur sms ):

13/2/11

2011-02-12T23:19:00.000-08:00

13 feb 11

today is sunday.

i should be going home in the morning but yet at nite than go home.

coz at nite i will be at my aunt house celebrate cny.

tml will be the day.

but i think it wont.

haiz.

now i feel so sick.

seen like after you leave me alone you have been having fun.

this 2 day my sick are coming back again.

fever , headache, cough,flu are back! ):

this few days i need tu rush for my project.

rush for 3 project within this month and next month ):

and oso out of sudden i started tu miss you.

i just had no idea why ?!

12/2/11

2011-02-12T05:23:00.000-08:00

12 feb 11

is been a long time since i come back from beijing

is been almost 2week after we break):

haiz.

till now i still don know wat the reason behind tat which cause us break this story.

you once told me tat you wont let go of this story de.

in the end ? break it ?!

haiz!

what had happened to our story which you say de!?

now i know le.

after you hong dao me le.

jiu play wif me.

play hao le.

throw me aside le.

haiz.

now you wann me to forget about you.

so tat you can go stead wif tat weiting rite ?

this is not the first time le!

haiz.

i feel like wann die sia.

haiz!

you just like cyp!

no different.

haiz.

i don know wat tu say le.

tat all.

2/2/11

2011-02-02T02:34:00.000-08:00

2 feb 11

maybe this is the last post be4 i fly to beijing for 4hours.

today teacher told us about her taking plane.

super funny de lor.

is like she say whenever she sit she wont even move a single step or turn the head

she will just look front nia.

than she onli can tahan 4hrs max le.

more than 4hrs she will vomit out all she eat the food.

and during tat 4hrs she wont even wann go the toilet de.

she say her most far is malaysia nia.

and take bus but not plane.

every one at there laugh sia.

well tat all for the teacher story.

this few days i did not feel so good coz the weather ):

suddenly cold suddenly hot.

it make me feel so sick

and every morning keep on ahchew and is freaking cold!

after you leave me i just noe why every morning i feel super cold ):

last time every morning you will pei me text untill you toh.

now ? not even a single sms ? haiz.

i still don noe why i just cant forget you.

maybe after my holiday i will totally forget ba.

maybe this is not our fate ):

haiz.

i don noe still can say what le.

later 7 need to go the safar there eat dinner .

after tat 10 plus need to go airport le. ):

will bring pooh along de.

i just don noe why i still huggy it whenever i slp during nap time or nite time (:

is like tat you gone is tat pooh pei me de.

is like i wont feel totally lost.

and lastly thanks for the memory tat you gave me.

i veri happy with tat.

haiz.

think should end here ba.

2/2/11

2011-02-01T16:44:00.000-08:00

2 feb 11

today reach sch at 7.30 coz 8 i got interview by the teacher.

teacher ask me wheather i got stead anot.

so i tell the truth yet the teacher say

i brave enough to accept the fact that we broke up ytd ):

the teacher still say i not like other broke up and don dare tu come sch.

and nv late likes other (:

yea rite i maybe is special one.

i may look strong at outside but not inside.

teacher still ask me do i still have any family problem?

and i say don have.

do i alway need help ?

and i say nope.

she still say she choose me coz i firece enough ?

do i look like one ?!

i don think so ):

well tat all for now.

now at sch using sch com (:

1/2/11

2011-02-01T02:08:00.000-08:00

1 feb 11

back from sch ):
i so tired.
nearly doze off to slp at MRT toward marina bay there tat red line ):
no 1 pei me sms.
i so lonely ):
reach tiong not long at bus stop waiting for bus to come.
suddenly all our past memory flash back ):
is like our 1 time sit bus toward my house ):
first time go tiong togather ):
first time meet at bishan ):
first time watch movie ):
haiz.
i just cant accept tat fact tat you are leaving me ):
i just don noe why ):
haiz.
i will still the pooh wif me.
i don noe why will i still bring tat even we brk le ?
haiz.
nvm ar past is past le.
tat nth we can do le ):
haiz.
hope you wont throw tat doreamon and tat small pinkpanter ?
hope you still continue to keep tat memory.
even i gone hope you can find some 1 better than me ):

1/2/11

2011-01-31T17:04:00.000-08:00

since you wann brk than brk ba.

now my heart had no feeling le .

since you now like wann running away from me than go ba.

haiz.

i just don understand why ?

maybe i cant trust boy again ba.

another failed rs by me ):

haiz.

i so tired ):

hope after my holiday you would just think what happened tu you.

i don wann to say le .

1/2/11

2011-01-31T15:45:00.001-08:00

1 feb 11

i just don understand what had happened to you ?!

coz of her ? and you anyhow think?

haiz.

if you wann think and wann brk i can tell you during tat 1month i already wanted tu brk wif you ?

but than i don dare to brk coz i scare i hurt dao you ?

tat why tat feeling had gone.

i just love you wif my wholed heart (:

why cant you understand me ? ):

ytd i went tu eat my dizzy med just to mute my heart pain ):

went tu cut my hand ):

around 11 toh in my bed dao 4.30 woke up saw dao you wann brk ):

haiz.

i just don understand why ?

you told me before say you love me badly and now ?

you know how hurt i have ma ? ):

you just think nia!

you sad who pei you who sayang you ?

you angry who pei you and tell you joke ?

you cry who pei you ?

you sick who pei you and go hospital visit you ?

and now you wanted to brk wif me ?

FML! i hate this feeling seriously.

no wonder ppl is me so foolish to fall for you.

haiz.

now you just like cyp like how he hurt me

thanks alot.

ytd my heart reali bleeding alot.

i still tot we could celebrate our 2month after i come back from beijing.

i think this idea can throw away le.

now idk wat i should do le. ):

haiz.

i oso can slp ytd i didnt slp well.

today my lesson start at 12 yet i 7.35 woke up just wann post my blog.

i don noe you still will see anot lor.

haiz.

baby, i just wann know what had happened tu you!?

now the problem is not me but you!

so what i in ITE?

i in ite almost 2month did i fall in love wif other guy ?

no rite ?!

is just ur bullshit idea !

reali is just ur bullshit nia.

haiz.

just don understand why ?! haiz ):

31/1/11

2011-01-31T03:59:00.001-08:00

its been raining for almost 2days le.

and finally it stop yeap!

today morning is rain.

and baby ask me take my blanket and become sushi.

later baby wann eat me if i become sushi. x.x

went tu as normal just tat it start at 9.

reach bishan around 8 something.

it started tu rain heavily.

heng i got bring umbrella.

on the way tu sch my shoes started tu wet.

next is my bag and my efc file wet too.

x.x

dry umbrella in the class.

at 9.45 had a talk by a company by sat is from airport de.

coz i tio the attrachment and i been interview .

suddenly i don feel like going for attachment le.

coz is like 4 weekends.

is like i already had no time for baby. for wat still go attachment.

yea right.

1h $5

20hrs $100 le x.x

just try luck then.

after sch went tu junction 8 have lunch wif friends.

around 2 or 3 i zao le.

reach home eat nuts and i toh.

4.30 my popo call.

i should be 5 go down take rice but then i slp dao 5.30 than go down take rice.

x.x

keep on yawnz!

nv been so tired be4. ):

maybe i should end here ba.

tat all the rest i lazy to say le. (:

31/1/11

2011-01-31T03:52:00.001-08:00

you are back. (:

just the way you make me smile.

just the way you tell jokes for me tu hear.

just the way you talk tu me and mai GL me! ):

er, i don what tu post le.

well let me say this.

since this is he and you the past.

for what wann tell me and repeat the story again ?

i have before this type of feeling before.

i hurts alot of time by my ex.

so why not let go this feeling and continue your life ?

right ?

you continue this feeling and you will not be happy.

tat all.

30/1/11

2011-01-29T23:57:00.000-08:00

30 jan 11

its been long since i post it.

well let me post it now.

its been couple of days we have so call "cold war"

i don noe what happened between us ?

is it my fault ?

i feel lost rite now.

i feel tat you have totally change into other guy.

this type of feeling i don wann it happened like wat he done tu me. ):

every nite i hugged pooh and tears.

friday and sat you didnt msg me at all ?!

what happened ?

can tell me ?

you like change totally.

i scare! ;sob!

i don noe wat should i do rite now ?

all your reply sms feel so cold.

i don like it.

now i tears again.

now you happily shopping and eating sushi teh for your lunch ?

how good isit ?

you every nite you will call me chat but now ?!

you did not.

why coz your tired.

i don noe isit truth ?

i don noe!

i just have no idea what had happened ?

you last time will alway sms me double and ask why am i replying late ?

now ?

you just send me 1 sms and you nv reply again. ):

even you every time you eat you will text me first than you eat.

but now ?

you did not even sms me say you eating?

what the hell isit going on?!

FML! i reali don like this story!

if can i would like tu change tu other chapter of the story but not this.

now even i slping i will have nitemare.

nowaday all ur sms all so late reply ?

reply le than nvm feel so cold.

after every quarrel you would say sorry tu me but now ?

you did not even say a single sorry to me ?

but yet you went tu sleep ?

you know i this morning 2 than sleep.

why ?

waiting for your reply ?

i cant even sleep properly ):

even i seh i oso don dare tu tell you ?

why ?

coz i scare you worry.

but i wrong you did not even care at all.

my heart now bleeding.

i just wann wake up from this nitemare i have!

i reali don wann this !

i reali wann make you smile again.

just me onli. isit tat hard ?

ytd i ask you tat question isit tat hard for you to answer ?

i just wann know why you love me ?

got wrong meh ?

i soon wann go beijing le.

i don noe what will happened after i come back?

will we still continue ?

will we still be the same as last time ?

will you be as sweet as last time ?

tears continue drop non stop.

tat all for now. ;sob!

26jan11

2011-01-26T04:08:00.000-08:00

26 jan 11

haiz. just viewed ur fb profile.

i should not see at first ba.

haiz.

suddenly sae dao you accept or added dao so many gals wor.

haiz.

suddenly got gal post thing tu you wor.

see dao you like having fun wif tat gal wor.

haiz.

and now great i jealous and no mood le.

how am i surpose tu cheer you up and myself ?

haiz.

i got nth to say le. reali spoilt my mood.

25/1/11

2011-01-24T16:06:00.000-08:00

well is been long time since i post it

let me post again.

why ?

coz baby ytd keep on nagging me while i wann toh le ):

lets begin wif 20 jan coz some of the post i have forget wat did i do le.

20 jan 11

as normal after sch went tu meet baby.

suppose tu meet at woodland de.

but baby call me reach woodland than tell him he say go bukit botak or gombak eat.

than i is okay lor. hehe.

finally meet dao baby le!

eat dao hao le.

went home.

tat all.

21 jan11

today lesson should end at 12 but than our english teacher didnt not came.

so 1h period of bpf was push towards.

and it end at 11.

so i call my aunt say i will be going back hss to see my junior.

wif my less partner elaine.

went dao 12.45 my aunt suddenly call me and i tell her say i waiting for bus.

and i told her say is oppsite car petrol there. x.x

went tu bm eat.

still got more but yet i lazy tu post and some i already forget le.

22jan11

at my aunt house eat dinner.

after tat she give me surpise.

i didnt noe at all.

25jan 11

which is today!

1 year older le ):

but yet ppl still think i 12 or 13 de xmm lai de. ;shy

well my eye still got abit of sowllen or maybe i cant fully open.

tat all for now.

maybe later going see doc or going sch .

19/1/11

2011-01-19T04:38:00.000-08:00

19 jan 11

today went tu sch coz no mc x.x

alarm rang at 6 yet i continue slp dao 6.30 x.x

damm tired sia.

went tu class as normal.

text baby.

skip so part coz lazy tu say x.x

today end sch at 3.

haiz.

i now can say i veri shag i don noe wat happened tu me sia.

well tat all for now.

18/1/11

2011-01-17T23:39:00.000-08:00

17 jan 11

today lesson start at 9 but i woke up at 6 plus sms baby.

coz at tat time i need tu get rdy for sch.

7 leave house.

8 reach reach sch ?

tat was fast.

first lesson lots of ppl was late.

the cs teacher call one of my friend say tat lesson will start at 9.30

everyboday was like walao le.

hehe

was chatting wif some of my friend.

almost 10 the teacher come.

teach dao 11 it was english period.

fking sianz.

soon i need tu do some role play and it will have no time tu pei baby le.

around 12.57 i tell the teacher lesson finish le.

the teacher believe it. x.x

i quickly MRT down tu yew tee.

be4 tat i reach bishan MRT.

i was finding the wat towards jurong east tat side de.

but i went wrong place.

later ppl tot i was playing maze x.x

around 1plus or 2 reached yew tee le.

finally saw dao baby.

lots of day didnt saw dao him le ):

missdiehim le. ):

around 3 plus it started tu rain.

baby hold my umbrella.

he keep on at there nag me sia ):

than i say how i know sia.

it rain so heavily.

around 6 my mummy reached home i than bath :x

during tat time i started tu find things wann quarrel wif baby :p

i didnt know tat ytd i slp quit early.

around 9 plus i toh le didnt tell baby ):

18 jan 11

around 12 plus woke up saw baby text and i reply.

than toh back.

around 5 plus baby reply my text i around 6.30 reply his text and pei he text.

but late reply. :x

around 9 plus woke up feel not so good.

don wann tu go sch ):

i text baby say i went tu see doc.

see hao doc le and get hao mc le.

around 12 plus baby nagging at me.

around tat time i was eating tibits.

eat hao le .

i toh back coz the med making me dizzy ):

than baby keep on say me. ):

well i sick baby don let me use com too much ):

need off le .

16/1/11

2011-01-16T01:51:00.000-08:00

15 jan 11

haiz.

i feel tat our rs veri complicated.

i don noe wat i been think about.

baby is sick again.

i cant be by his side.

this few days didnt meet dao baby.

i do miss him badly.

now a day i been crying just for you.

ytd nite baby have fever again. ):

kidney and stomach isit a big different ?

baby ytd tot me tat doc say he stomach infection in the end baby say he got kidney infection i chuo tio lor ! ):

text baby half way baby toh le.

than left me behind.

his kor kor suddenly use his phone text me say am i vanessa lee wann xian.

not xian but is xuan!

haiz.

baby ytd while sleeping he keep on repeat my name.

baby , imissyou ):

faster record pls!

may the god heal my baby.

i don wann anything happened tu him ):

16 jan 11

today woke up at 6.

was late tu meet my friend at tiong.

reached expo around 7 plus.

so some of my classmate.

8 meet our CA teacher at expo subway.

baby today so early wake up and pei me text. ):

as long as you text me can le.

today went tu expo to do some cpr at the dummy.

was form in group of 8.

i like keep on pumb the dummy dao my both hand red red de ):

haiz.

baby today didnt meet me again ):

haiz.

around 2 plus think having cold war wif baby again.

i don noe wat tu do.

my feeling like baby been force tu reply my text.

baby keep on asking me tu smile.

but in the end not i make him smile.

i just wann tu make my baby smile.

guess i didnt make it today.

tears drop again... T.T

i reali do miss my baby.

3 days didnt meet dao baby do reali miss him alots T.T.

well tat all for now.

15/1/11

2011-01-14T17:05:00.000-08:00

well didnt post for this few day coz busy wif ite study.

than baby keep on nag wann me tu post. ):

12/1/11

today end at 3 plus coz teacher see us like so tired.

so let us early dissmissed.

end i call baby.

well i did forget wat happened during tat day.

13/1/11

today end at 12.

baby ytd admitted tu hospital ):

after sch went tu buy my uniform than went tu bishan inter.

take bus 57 down tu kk hospital pei baby ):

see baby so pain. sayang baby.

baby say the nurse take 4 bottle of his blood!

OMG! tat much can de lor.

poor baby.

around 2 went down wif baby tu kopitam coz he know tat i havent eat.

so he pei me eat.

eat hao le go up again.

rest at his bed.

like i the patient not him :x

than got 1 doctor keep on looking at me =.=

than he chat wif my baby i keep on looking at the tv.

chat on le baby went tu toilet.

than around 4 baby say he wann eat than i say eat hospital food larh!

he don wann.

than eat hao le he went back to his ward.

the nurse take his bp it reali went up tu 140 x.x

haiz.

tat all for today x.x

14/1/11

baby today had discharge yeaph!

today don need tu go visit him le.

but than had quarrel wif baby.

i don noe why sia.

haiz.

is like he just discharge from hospital than he go home rest.

at nite he got company function after tat function he went tu drink wif his father x.x

i jitao no comment sia.

haiz.

internal bleeding sia.

cry the whole nite.

didnt not slp tat well.

keep on wake up in between my slp ):

15/1/11

today wake up at 8 plus.

once i wake up i abit seh seh le ):

ytd nite cry tu much le.

cry dao 1 plus baby didnt sms me anything as usual.

he just jitao toh le ):

haiz.

tat all for now ):

11/1/11

2011-01-11T05:58:00.000-08:00

today is the five 1.

mean five 1 = 11/1/11 ?

lols! lame.

nvm.

10/1/11

after celebrate wif baby during sun.

and is monday i have tu reach sch at 9.

than i got this 1 friend call ren wei.

he sms me say wann meet ma ? than tgt go sch.

than i say okay lor.

so i wait for him at bishan inter 8plus ?

reach oppsite bishan ite it started tu rain.

i quickly run it.

wearing henderson sec uniform so xiasuay lor!

than mark attendence.

after tat go up to the mph.

mph= multi purpose hall ? x.x

than they start tu talk talk talk dao my leg numb ):

than having ice-breaker call wackco.

must remember the classmate name =.=

after tat i forget le.

after sch i went tu bishan inter take 57 .

it take lots of time tu travel lor.

takes like almost 2hrs ? =.=

skip some of the part.

around 9 plus.

i text baby the last sms and i toh till this morning 3plus reply baby sms.

and toh back.

wann toh tat time saw tat pooh is on the floor :x

hehe.

pick it up and toh back till 5.30 am.

11/1/11

this morning 5.30 wake up

went tu brush teeth and wash face.

this morning freaking cold.

i keep on ahchew!

than on com fb alwhile around 6.30 take bus go tiong eat mac.

eat hao le.

than take MRT tu raffles place change tu marina bay toward jurong east ?

reach bishan they havent reach.

i keep on kp my friend call ren wei why keep on late sia.

than skip some part.

i lazy talk about today sia.

today baby 2 plus reach bishan yet i tell him soon.

he quickly bath and MRT down tu bishan :x

sorry baby.

and i relised at 3 x.x

meet baby at junction 8.

went down tu tiong eat KFC.

and went home.

toh alwhile around 7 plus.

my father keep on kp me keep on asking me wake up buy his dinner =.=

well tat all i lazy post sia. feel like wann toh again. but i wann listen tu baby voice ):

wann him stay by myside. ):

sianz. tml start sch and it end at 4 ):

cant meet baby le ):

9/1/11

2011-01-09T05:19:00.001-08:00

back homw sweet home.
thanks baby during the 1month.
i feel veri happy tu have you.
and thanks baby for the pooh tat you give me for the 1month anniversary <3
have fun today!
hope baby oso have lots of fun.
here are the pic tat i take.

baby dancing but he didnt know tat i snapshot him (:

baby give me the pooh for 1month anniversary <3

baby and the pooh!

trying tu kiss the pooh ):

i like this pic of my baby and the pooh! <3

baby at there emo wif the pooh on his head!

look down and be kpo!

trying tu kpo!

snapshot!

9/1/11

2011-01-08T08:13:00.001-08:00

9Jan 11

baby, happy 1month anniversary tu you! iloveyou!

tat all for now.

gonna meet baby later. :D

8/1/11

2011-01-08T01:51:00.000-08:00

8 jan 11

whis is today.

ytd nite baby call me and chat dao 1plus.

baby keep on calling me see i toh anot than keep on say baby iloveyou.

than he oso know tat he keep on calling tat coz nth tu do.

i keep on asking him tu toh he don wann.

need wait till i wann toh like tat than he will toh.

funny ar ?

x.x

we chated about 1h 48min x.x

didnt brk the record.

today morning 8 plus wake up saw dao baby msg around 5 plus and dk wat time de.

and i reply

after tat toh back slp dao 9plus wake up.

baby jiu say me zhuzhu!

): he veri bad ar ?
hehe.

around 10 went down tu cresent tu eat my breakfast wif my mother.

after tat take the passport pic.

coz the ite need it.

dk for wat ?

so ugly lor.

eat hao and do hao the pic le went back home.

sweep and mop the floor.

baby jiu say me so guai ar ?

than i like lazy reply bbay.

so leave my phone at charge.

went tu eat my tibits.

sunflower seed. :x

around 2 went tu bm NTUC wif my mummy.

buy things.

reach home around 4 plus.

see tv alwhile and now i rite here type my blog.

i need tu post if not baby keep on nag me! ;wild!

woah. baby.

veri fast and tml is our 1month le.

did not know tat we went through lots of things.

like quarral , my hot temple , your overseas , ignore your sms or call :x and my jealous :p

thanks baby.

baby , iloveyou and imissyou badly.

yeah. tml can meet you le.

you still don wann tell me the time and where you wann tu watch the movie sia ?!

x.x

well tat all for now.

7/1/11

2011-01-07T04:49:00.000-08:00

6jan 11
back for posting again.
if i don post my baby will nag at me again ):
baby ytd veri early jiu toh le.
ps me alone.
around 9 plus i send baby 1 sms.
it say.
baby piggy! imissyou badly ): sigh. well let me say smth sweet thing for you.
baby, you are just an gift tat god sent it tu me. i so happy tat i have this type of boyfriend.
no matter wat hope you wont leave this hot temple little missy. :x
you promise me me be4 le.
so no matter what you cant leave me :p
baby, iloveyou. mauckz!
but i prefer real de. soon it will be our 1month.
during the 1month i know my attitude sux. i know i jealous veri easy but then you will let me but not quarrel wif me. thanks baby.
from your love one : vanessa (:

hope tat sunday we could meet.
well tat all think that you still sleeping like pig! but still my baby , dear , honey, sweetheart.
sweet ar ?
tat all for ytd.

7jan11

today moring 8.30 wake up.
text baby say i wake up le.
baby moring till 12 plus bo text dao me wor.
coz he say his teacher change into firece one ? =.=
today around 11 meet my aunt at my house downstair drive tu tiong x.x
coz i today went tu tiong watch movie.
the tittle is ghost must be crazy.
cmi don noe tonite can slp ma.
coz once i watch ghost movie i maybe cant be slp le x.x
the starting part and middle part veri scarly.
than last few part veri funny.
the ah hui change tu xiaojuan =.=
around 2 its finish.
than after tat went tu chinatown coz my aunt need tu buy thing.
after tat my aunt drive me home.
reach home around 4 plus.
and i toh dao almost 6 wake up :x :p
well tat all.
now texting wif baby.
my cubby hubby! <3

6/1/11

2011-01-05T17:06:00.000-08:00

4 jan 11

today went to bishan ite wif my aunt.

be4 tat 1.30pm went down eat my breakfast plus lunch.

rice didnt eat finish.

dk why :x

than my aunt drive me tu hss there take money voucher.

after tat went tu bishan ite.

on the way to bishan text - ing wif baby.

he hor!

first day of sch jiu so naughty le!

naughty baby! :x

reach bishan around 2 or 3 plus reach bishan

like no 1 de.

my number is 277 but i reach there is already 275 =.=

i tell my aunt like no 1 de.

after req hao le.

went tu other side take ez-link card photo x.x

take hao le.

my aunt drive us tu tiong and shop.

coz nth tu do.

reach home 5.

5 jan 11

today baby nv go sch.

pon sch!

horhor!

naughty baby!

he didnt went tu sch but went tu woodland find his friend.

so pei him text - ing.

he reply sms super slow sia!

slow pig!

i gonna be fat soon le.

coz around 11 plus i eat my breakfast.

than next 1h i eat my lunch. :x

gonna be pig le.

than baby say no lor!

x.x

at nite le.

i charging my phone.

so don wann reply baby sms.

around 9 plus reply him why miss my text ar ?

he call me i answer he jitao firece me wor.

few min later i kup his phone.

sms quarrel again.

haiz.

ytd percent reali drop till 50%

reali no kidding.

my stead don dare tu firece me.

once it firece it will drop auto to 50%

nice ar.

sms dao 12.

than baby call and chat alwhile than we toh.

=.=

6jan 11

today my didi was late leave to leave the house.

than my baby leh.

oso late and need rush tu sch.

see larh!

don wann slp early is like tat.

now at principle office.

why ?!

coz he attire fail and attitude teacher.

maybe need go home.

woah go home so happy hor.

than he say yea so tat can chat wif you.

but than i say i don wann chat wif you leh!

than he wah shag!

hehe.

baby ar!

why you hor!

sch reopen not even 1 week you got so many problem le!

sigh.

don know wat tu say you leh.

tuesday oso the same

tio catch by his DM / teacher.

sigh.

no comment for you le.

tat all for now.

3/1/11

2011-01-03T04:22:00.000-08:00

baby msn - ing me half way he suddenly ask me what is his weakness point?

and i reply ? .

he say :my weakness is you , you are just like a organ in my body , without you it wont work properly . without you i would be dying .
so dont never leave me please

i say : awww!!!

he say :
I love you, not for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you.
( still got chinese words but cant be read )

sweet ar ?!

3/1/11

2011-01-03T03:49:00.000-08:00

three day didnt post my blog le.

feel so dead now.

31 dec went tu my aunt house.

count down at there didnt know go out during nite time.

morning meet baby dao 1 plus went tu take MRT tu bishan meet my aunt.

at nite veri late than slp coz count down and see - ing tv.

while texting baby.

1jan2011

happy new year people.

is a new year.

hope baby and i wont quarrel tat much as last year the dec ?

loveyou baby.

2jan2011

nth to post coz veri sianz.

and i lazy to post.

3jan2011

today 11 leave my aunt house tu jurong point.

coz be4 tat my aunt ask my help her do her hair.

so i do the instand haor rebond dao veri long.

so reach baby house around 12 like tat.

rest alwhile than around 1 went tu yew tee point the foodcourt eat.

eat dao almost 2 plus.

baby send my tu MRT station.

reach home 3.

tml going bishan ite for req le.

shag.

hope can get dao cck.

just now see the sch fee about $159 x.x

so ex.

now msn - ing wif baby.

lazy to post le.

iloveyou baby! <3

29/12/10

2010-12-29T18:21:00.000-08:00

back for posting coz today went to work.

so didnt post dao anything.

7 plus wake up.

went tu purmei coffee shop eat.

slack dao 8 plus i call my friend see where they.

than we 9 plus went in tu my primary sch at purmei.

call radin mas primary.

is like 1 blink of eye i just grad from sec sch.

fast ar.

than work dao 4 plus.

is like whole day didnt call baby and sms baby.

misshim badly.

than suddenly got 2 or 3 still okay the boy come in and help us.

OMG!

than reach home around 5 eat hao thing than toh alwhile.

wake up saw baby missed call me

than skip abit of the post.

coz lazy.

around 9 tu 10 i did cry just for you.

i just nearly wann take tat thig and make more hurt on my hand.

after tat baby say he bo mood.

i dk why coz i was sleeping.

at 5 plus i woke up saw dao 1 miss call at 2 plus 4 sms from baby at different time.

saw le went back to sleep.

30/12/10

today woke up at 8 plus nearly 9.

coz i wann see the result.

hope tio dao cck the business skill office.

but is wrong.

i tio dao my choice 8 at bishan oso business skill office de.

i dk who wif me ):

now great coz of tat course i think my temple back again.

today gonna quarrel wif baby again.

sigh bishan sia! cant meet baby as offen le ;sob.

my mother don let me appeal for it.

coz she say onli 1 year le.

than wat if appeal than not the course i wann how ?

die oso rite ?

sigh. seibei shag sia!

BISHAN SIA!

super far sia.

cant meet baby le ):

just now call baby tell him about tat i tio bishan he oso shag and sianz half le.

haiz.

i like veri bad.

baby sleep dao half way i call him.

and wake him up.

sorry.

now fucking no mood le!

great!

and abit headache and not feeling well le.

28/10/10

2010-12-27T19:53:00.000-08:00

back from my aunt house.

3 day did not post coz at chalet.

during the 3day2night tat chalet alots of things had happened.

at first is nth de.

than when my aunt friend and his daughter come wif her friend.

those 3 veri xl.

damm hate them.

well who care!?

don talk about them le.

lets talk about 26 morning (:

baby 9 plus call me when i still sleeping :x

after tat baby around 11 smth reach ehub.

my uncle drive van go fetch my baby.

than tat 3 gal keep on see my baby ):

went to nearby and eat than after tat went tu temple pray.

after tat went back tu chalet.

change to swimming clothe went tu wild wild wet!

fun to the max.

baby keep on bully me in the lazy pool!

after swimming hao le.

went back to chalet.

take turn to bath!

mei mei went in first than me than my aunt.

but my aunt don noe at where.

so i ask my baby go bath first don wait le.

than tat 1 fker gal say my bad word.

than bath hao le baby and i went to ehub to eat KFC!

i ask baby don buy meal for me he don wann listen went tu buy it.

nvm the drink and the potato i bring back to chalet give my aunt. hehe.

be4 eating my baby went to smoke.

tat 3 gal talk tu my baby ):

jealous to the max );

than the we started to eat.

baby eat veri less wor!

after few min tat 3 gal stop eating oso.

than baby went outside smoke.

hor alway smoke hor!

* don care you le *

after alwhile they went home le.

good!

after eating my temple out again ):

skip tat part don wann say :x

than around 11 plus or 12 plus we play - ing black jack.

no play money de but is lose drink :x

starting i keep on bomb :x

than drink dao abit headache le.

after tat dao my baby bomb le

we play dao the henessy and 1 can of tiger beer finish we jiu stop playing le

than my aunt first to toh than my aunt friend than i toh. :x

sorry baby cant sleep wif you ):

hope you had fun during the 1 day chalet wif me.

still got more but lazy tu post :x

baby iloveyou!

25/12/10

2010-12-24T17:51:00.000-08:00

back for posting!

well merry chirstmas to all of my friend!

and happy new year to you all too. (:

is been 2 days i didnt post le.

baby ytd keep on disiao me!

hatedieyou !

hehe.

baby , iloveyou and merry chirstmas to you too <3

baby sun coming for the xmas chalet le!

23/12/10

2010-12-22T17:21:00.000-08:00

haiz i don noe what to post sia.

after hearing baby illness.

i jitao tio stunt.

than few min tears drop.

baby jiu call me i quckly wipe it off.

after chatting i diam diam and text baby.

is like really i could not accept the illness but i will pei you.

take care of you and ask you smoke less.

now baby keep on late reply my sms.

worrydieme le ):

sigh

ytd around 11 plus after chatting wif baby on the phone my tears auto drop dao alot sia.

i don know why sia.

sigh.

hope you still remember our promise which you told me de. ):

sigh lazy to post le.

22/12/10

2010-12-21T16:57:00.000-08:00

baby almost 11 than wake up.

wait i really damm pissed off than he wake up.

great job ar baby.

he wake up le i went to bath.

bath hao le saw dao 7 miss call from him 3 sms from him (:

HUMPH!!!

than reach yew tee around 11 plus.

than at his house nearby slack.

slack dao 12 plus.

than i tell him i havent eat le than he jitao sia go eat go eat!

next time better don say :x

coz he will forget de.

than he say he forget to bring his wallet so went up tu his house and take the wallet.

saw his mother.

his mother quit young sia.

take hao wallet than we went down eat at kopi shop there at yew tee point.

i buy hao food le than i wann go back saw dao his friend lai le.

than all go buy food than ps me again ? =.=

after eating they wann go play basketball.

than baby tell them say he go back home change and take his basketball ball.

reach his house saw dao his ah ma at there sit.

he keep on dissiao his ah ma lor.

i at there keep on laugh.

he change hao le went dao and play.

play dao 5 plus than baby say he wann go home bath first.

he at home keep on disiao his ah ma say.

bad boy!

went to yew tee point eat again.

eat tat chicken chop.

curse and swear not to eat tat again!

after tat baby send me to tiong MRT there than he go home and went to bus stop wait for bus.

7.30pm just reach home.

than went to bath.

go watch tv alwhile than go down buy tibit and eat and went home

suddenly baby tell me say that his ah ma tell him say she like me and say i veri pretty i jitao chuo tio. =.=

than say dao i veri tired and toh on the bed

22/12/10

today wake up at 8 or plus.

i didnt sms baby coz i wann let him slp longer so don wann disturb him

than he still say me wat don wann sms him and ask him wake up ):

than my fault larhs ?

than still got alots more i skipped.

coz lazy to say :p

that all.

lazy tu type and post le.

now chatting wif baby on phone! <3

lovediehim le.

hehe!

21/12/10

2010-12-20T18:09:00.001-08:00

kann la! damm pissed off with baby now!

pcb! ask me call him than in the end still at there sleeping!

you ask me call ur house to ask u wake up.

in the end don wann answer my call!

NB!

next time don ask me call you la!

kann fk you la!

ccb!

i spam call you hundred of time msg you alot of time too.

yet u still don wann wake up.

need wait till i angry than u wake up sibo?!

freaking damm pissed off sia!

NB!

call you for 1h plus you still wann wake up.

FINE! you don wann wake up than you continue slp ba.

i die , MIA or wat don bother to find me!

fking hate this! ;wild!

i think i gonna mad coz of this!

21/12/10

2010-12-20T16:25:00.000-08:00

back for posting.

baby ytd nite veri funny!

laughdieme le.

hehe!

he dont know how he close the door sia.

than he come back from toilet and he call me say his rm door is being lock.

he!?

than he still don wann worry about it.

still can FB msn chat wif friend happily hor!

still can say he hungry wann eat mac. =.=

after that 1 plus his friend and him go settle his door thing

and is open.

gratz baby.

at 4 plus baby msg me say he bo mood wor.

what happeneed sia ?

now baby is sleeping later i spam call him wake up (:

baby pig lai de! :D

later meeting baby wif his friend go play basketball.

20/12/10

2010-12-20T05:28:00.001-08:00

FML~

my mood still okay and yet my baby say i sad and moody.

FML sia.

i where got sia.

forget it than since you say i moody and sad.

mind as well don chat better.

since you say de.

FML!

no mood to post anything le.

20/12/10

2010-12-20T05:05:00.000-08:00

i feel i fall in love wif you again.

is like can in love wif you.

i feel happy.

you told me that if this relationship is a story , we wrote ourself, i prayed that i can never ends this story baby.

and i promise i won't ever let this pen to get out of my hand.

sweet ar ?

sorry baby that just now i treat you cold.

i don noe why will like tat.

baby imissyou <3

yeah! tml can meet baby again.

misshim badly to the max le. ):

sorry is just an short post.

20/12/10

2010-12-19T16:56:00.000-08:00

back for posting.

ytd didnt not post due to some connection of my internet. ):

baby ytd keep on nag at me why didnt post thing on blog.

sorry baby.

ytd chat wif baby.

than i keep on sing my blog song.

so ps. >.<

than after chat at 10 he go bath

alwhile more he say his uncle fight wif over a toilet. laws!

chat after 5 to 10 min his uncle come out from toilet.

eeekkksss!!!!! DIRTY FELLOW!

if can i would love my baby but not DIRTY FELLOW!

so late than bath. aiyo!

he bath so long de lor!

still dare say me.

u oso slow lor!

than he say his uncle force him watch ghost movie.

than we text first.

at 11.45 he go smoke =.=

keep on smoke smoke!

humph!

after smoke he call me chat again.

hehe.

at first was veri happy de.

than suddenly his cusin scream through the phone my ear freaking damm hurts.

than alwhile more jiu headache.

baby ytd nite tio one punch from his cousin.

his eye red le.

hehe.

text dao 12 plus.

than we both toh and went to slp.

i think baby sleep dao veri well ar ?

till now havent wake up.

pig sia!

mauckz* for baby (:

is like ytd i don know why i will think dao sat we go up lv 25 at 1 blk

coz he wann smoke.

smoke hao le i turn other side.

than baby suddenly hug me.

awww!!

i really miss tat day ):

i wann tat hug again! :x

i ask baby why he suddenly hug me than he say

coz i afraid i would not be able to see my face again.

awww! sweet rite ?

lovedieyou baby.

and he reply loveyou till the very last moment of his life :D

sweet bodoh!

when i read this sms my heart really melted!

and i ask my baby how ?

and he reply wah! how! OMG you need ambulance ?

than i say i already call le.

so later go hospital find me ar ?

haha.

than he reply Noooo! choi! i don wann baby like that say herself :(

i only joking nia.

awww! sweet ar ?

that my baby (:

alway tat sweet baby.

18/12/10

2010-12-18T05:47:00.000-08:00

baby went to sleep le.

coz he this morning 4.57 than slp.

sorry baby for making you worry about me coz i didnt reply ur sms.

hope you sleep soundly.

sorry!

i keep on seeing this sms sia.

i don now why i keep on see.

maybe the last part of the sms ba.

it say.

baby, i know just now i said about those things is my fault. please scold me but don't ingnore me. I hope you would know that i'm worry about you now.

Hope you use blanket.

Remember what you ask me, if one day you are gone le, what will i do ? i would search everywhere in singapore if i knew where you stay i will go up to your house. if really this day came i hope if you are really at home. please just let me see you once.

once is enough.

baby i hope you would know whenever i'm feeling low your laugher just brights me up. you are just like a medicine that can cure any illness on me. Aactually yesterday 16th nite i had a fever , but when i'm heard your voice i'm like healed. baby iloveyou till the very last monent of my life.

sweet ar ?

baby isit true that you will loveme till your last moment of your life ?

i still thinking isit all true ? isit from ur heart that u type out ?

i'm scare rite now! ):

18/12/10

2010-12-18T05:11:00.000-08:00

back home sweet home (:

today went out wif baby!

at first take cab to this hotel to eat buffet wif his brother and his gf.

so ps! OMG!

after eating his brother drive us tu tiong and baby and i watch movie at there.

movie start at 4.30pm and we went tu long john sliver and slack.

playing baby ipad.

and he keep on bully me!

hatediehim!

4.30pm reach and we go up.

it take 2hour to finish the movie.

around 6 plus the movie finish we went tu take a bus and went tu my house nearby and eat.

after tat baby fetch me go home.

thanks baby.

iloveyou! <3

17/12/10

2010-12-17T04:57:00.000-08:00

finally!

i make it till end of secdonary sch life le.

bye henderson sec!

today almost 12 went out of my house and went down to find my father and my ahma.

than sms elaine and wen hui see where they wann meet for lunch.

than after tat i went to take bus to inter.

tat fast!

reach bukit merah have lunch after tat went back to sch.

reach sch about 2 plus.

reach sch hall 2.30pm ?

lols!

talk dao almost 3.30 pm

than we start 1 ppl by 1 ppl went to teacher there and take result.

scare to the max can de lor!

than teacher say i veri heng nia.

than i say reach ar ?

but it reali veri heng for my english amd maths.

mr tan keep on smile than we keep on looking at him and we say got tat happy ma ?

smile dao like tat. x.x

but seriously heng to the max.

if not the course i wann could not make it.

thanks god!

tml meeting baby!

could not wait till tml sia!

imisshim badly ):

17/12/10

2010-12-16T17:25:00.000-08:00

baby.

this post is for you de. (:

still remember wat i told you when u at china ?

well let me say again if you don noe or forget le.

baby, you have no fail to cheer me up whenever sad or no mood.

even though u oso no mood but u still cheer me up and make me happy.

thanks baby (:

no matter what, you will alway be there for me whenever i need you.

you are just an happy pill to me but you oso my baby.

my best baby <3

day by day past and i fall in love wif you more deeper.

;shy.

just like this morning you say you tears but u still have no fail to cheer me up.

thanks baby.

i hear dao u sad voice i wish i would go ur there and sayang you and tell you tat

what past is past.

don let it affect dao our rs hao bu hao ?

i can feel dao u reali tat care for me.

take it like this morning tat chat ?

i having flu and cough than u keep on asking me drnk more water and take blanket cover myself

you even say take my didi blanket and cover myself too.

sweet ar?

tat my baby.

he will use all the idea to cheer me up no matter he sad or kann whack or cane by his father

he still continue cheer me.

he still know tat i hate her.

and noe he and her not gum le.

thanks baby and sorry about tat.

sorry tat it just an short post for you ):

17/12/10

2010-12-16T17:11:00.000-08:00

Today morning i was sleeping de.

than don noe why i suddenly wake up and see dao baby tear.

so i cheer him up by not letting him remember his past again.

ur past i did have tat be4 but didnt cut my hand and go hospital.

silly you!

if can i would like to cover back ur injured like how tat gal hurt you.

091220101212 will alway remember rite baby. <3

iloveyou baby no matter wat will alway beside you cheering you up! (:

later have to go sch take my Nlevels result yet i still chat wif my baby till 3.30

he later have to go work.

don noe he can wake up ma.

just now while sleeping i dream dao you baby.

dream dao i found out that u sms - ing wif gal.

and you still don wann admit it.

than i jiu jealous le.

than jiu wake up le.

;sigh

hope is just a dream.

isit baby ?

just now went to cut my nails

16/12/10

2010-12-16T01:15:00.001-08:00

Finally today baby are back in singapore around 3.30pm. (:

seen his sms tat he reply look like he really fine.

i promise you be4 tat u at oversea tat week i wont disappear.

and i did it. i didnt disappear. but still msn - ing wif you.

now having bad temper again.

don wann reply baby sms :x

i don noe why sia?

hehe.

sorry baby.

but u still in my heart.

baby happy 1 week anniversary to you! <3

15/11/10

2010-12-15T03:59:00.000-08:00

finally baby tml will be back to singapore!

i reali miss him badly!

ytd we finally chat on the phone while he oversea at china.

we chat till almost 2hours.

whenever i no mood he will alway be there to cheer me up!

thanks alot baby.

iloveyou!

morning i woke up at 9 saw baby online msn.

but he reply at almost 11 lai de.

don noe wat he doing during tat time.

baby, i don know wann tell you this ma ?

i feel that my feeling fade in the morning.

i don noe why will like tat.

it like fade 5% of it.

after tat e fade gone.

coz you chat wif me in msn.

i don noe why will like tat lor.

just noe listen to lao shu ai da mi while choosing my ite course.

you think can ma ?

1 - service skill ( retail ) west

2 -service skill ( office ) west

3 - Pastry& Baking west

4 - service skill ( Tourism ) west

5 - Hair service east

6 - Food & Beverage Operations west

7 - Western Culinary Arts west

8- Beauty Therapy east

9 - Asian Culinary Arts west

10 - Service skill ( Retail ) Bishan

hope the course i choose can make it!

now msn - ing wif baby

lazy talk le :x

14/12/10

2010-12-14T05:42:00.000-08:00

BABY finally online!

few sentence of words and u say u at hospital =.=

but heng not u injured

if not i for sure cry like hell de.

you just now late online i already cry abit le.

if you did in hospital i for cry till you come back sg de.

for sure!

heng now you are fine.

scare me dao my tears drop again. ;sob!

14/12/10

2010-12-14T05:11:00.000-08:00

back for posting again.

great tat my audit soon will be bann coz i could not log in!

great. good job! ;wild!

baby till now havent even on MSN!!!

;sob.

wonder what is he doing sia!

he say he would be online at 7 - 8 like tat

in the end havent even on dao!

;sob! baby wat you doing sia?

why didnt on MSN!

tears dropping down my chick. ;sob.

i seriously missyou.

now we have break e record!

whole day did not even sms did not MSN!

WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING SIA! BABY!!! ;SOB!

14/12/10

2010-12-14T03:38:00.000-08:00

today mood not so good.

didnt know wat had happened to me since morning.

morning wake up nth wrong.

i went to toilet my gastic started to have a veri big pain! ):

after tat went down give my ahma smth and i go home

bake hotdog and eat.

wann save money is like tat.

after eating tat hotdog.

feel like wann slp but did not.

it started to feel not well.

forehead jiu hot hot de.

dk why ):

whole day didnt sms my baby.

i wonder how was he today ?

did he eat well ?

saying of eat!

i think i gonna be like wat my baby say le.

i think i gonna be fat back again.

OMG! must not eat too much le!

afternoon should not eat this few days.

baby say he will online MSN during 7 to 8 ):

now going 8 le he still don wann online! ):

2 more days to tahan!

imisshim to the max!

13/12/10

2010-12-13T02:49:00.000-08:00

back to post again.

how great is today ?

well let me guess.

today wake up not feeling well.

having mac for breakfast.

after tat my aunt drive me home.

my didi pass me com after tat.

my baby scold me for being sick and nv take care of myself ;sob!

after tat off com went down buy my lunchand his lunch coz my father told me to do so.

so did i went down.

did not knew is raining and i didnt bring umbrella.

isit tat great enough ?

i guess not enough ba.

after eat hao my lunch.

went tu pack some cloths for my holidays during chinese new year.

from 3 feb to 8feb.

3am flight and i think i would miss you badly again.

after pack hao baby say he cant sms le.

coz his father knew tat he was using oversea sms.

how great tat my phone bill gonna bomb coz of this le. ):

at 5 i went dao go take my rice and my mother rice.

didnt knew it was raining so i just do the same as just now,

walk under it.

it feel great to the max.

now still msn - ing wif my baby.

just now he told me not tu angry coz he wann tell me smth

and i say wat thing yet you say u drive motorbike ? =.=

i jitao bwg le.

just now my father take toy banana hit me coz he say i bully him ?

FML!

13/12/10

2010-12-12T19:20:00.001-08:00

still remember this chat ?

after you off msn i jiu start to miss you again

still remember i tell you tat i wish to sick ?

i reali sick le ):

haiz.

i sms you, you didnt reply my sms ):

i reali did miss you badly.

12/12/10

2010-12-12T06:19:00.000-08:00

today went out wif my aunt at marina.

today nearly tears out coz i miss you too much le.

today didnt eat as much as ytd.

just now 7 plus at ecp eat my dinner didnt eat much oso.

at there see plane coming toward airport.

hoping is you coming back ): but my guessing is wrong le.

he still at china ):

miss him damm much till every nite veri late than slp.

ytd 12 plus than slp, while sleeping tears dropping down ;sob

and ytd didnt not eat dao any med.

i just wann feed me ):

just now u sms me saying you sick i jitao sad le.

in the end you say is lovesick.

i jiu no mood le .

i tot you reali sick le!

next time don scare me can ma ?

;sigh.

you say u thursday back to sg.

haiz.

5 more days to go ):

12/12/10

2010-12-11T07:52:00.000-08:00

ytd nite msn wif my baby.

i feel much better after chatting wifyou.

even thoughu reply late.

still remember the chat we talk?

and now you are sleeping i don wann disturb you.

coz you say u ytd didnt slp at all.

nowhaving thunder and i saw lighting.

i scare ):

my tear wann start to drop again le.

5 more days willbe back le.

faster back!

missyou again.

i scare again! ):

11/12/10

2010-12-11T05:48:00.000-08:00

baby finally sms me le.

baby! i reali very worry about you le.

first day in china yet u tell me tat u go police station

coz got ppl stare at you. after that start the fight.

heng you got no hurts if not i will for sure cry more than just now.

baby baby baby baby baby! iloveyou no matter what.

but during this week i scare my feeling for you will fade. ):

this is wat i scare the most. ):

haiz.

baby! are you reali fine ?

i'm scare ):

i'm reali scare of being lonely ):

i'm tired ):

i reali tired.

can you lend me your shoulder ?

lend me and rest on it?

baby iloveyou and imissyou to the max.

no matter wat.

11/12/10

2010-12-11T01:35:00.000-08:00

today is the first day u leave for oversea.
still got 6 or 7 days for you tu reach singapore.
ytd chat wif you dao 3 plus and ask u leave me a sms be4 you left
and u reali did left one for me at 5.30
at 6 i woke up and saw tat sms my tears started to drop.
after tat went back to slp.
i slp dao 9plus and started to miss you badly.
i did listen to you.
i eat my breakfast + lunch.
after tat reach my aunt house i eat some titb.
after tat eat my med.
haiz.
i go look throught all e sms tat u send me.
and i cry.
i did reali cry it.
even i post this i oso cry.
how unless am i ? ):

don say me le.
how about you ?
are you fine over there ?
did you eat well ?
did you sleep well ?
hope you see my blog and reply me through my tagged box if you can.
i seriously miss you to the max of my heart!;sob

9/12/10

2010-12-08T16:54:00.000-08:00

ytd 10 plus chat with you was happy.

thanks all the laugh tat you wish tu give me (:

hope you remember.

if you touch tat thing again and go back to your last time life i would ask you to leave my life

coz i don allow my stead to tounch tat things de.

hope you know.

09122010, 12:12 will alway remember <3

sorry tat friday cant meet you coz you last min say de.

sorry.

hope you will safety back to singapore on 17.

will miss you badly ):

have fun at china and remember to miss me wor.

and remember to buy plesent give me wor..

hehe!

iloveyou. 09122010; 12:12

8/12/10

2010-12-07T21:41:00.000-08:00

its been few weeks since you had left me.

now i wann tell you i had totally forget about you le.

haha!

i did not know tat after we break tats still many friend around me concern about me care about me pei me.

i just wann thanks to kai jing and xingyu and some of my friend.

they really pei me throught thick and thin. i veri happy wif my current life (:

hope you too.

a message for xingyu,

don be sad coz of him.

you are nice girl don coz of him and anyhow.

you can find someone 100% better than him rite ?

so cheer up and continue your life.

don coz of 1 tree and you give up the all forest.

there still have more better tree than him.

you know what i mean ?

a message for you <3

i think i have fall in love with you le.

but i don wish you hurt me as wat my past did ?

will you ?

maybe i should not fall for it.

but ytd nite and today morning i started to miss you le.

OMG! i damm peish le >.<

4/12/10

2010-12-04T00:42:00.000-08:00

you have finally say tat you do not wish to patch back wif me le.

great.

tat time when you say my heart had shattered in pieces le.

well done.

now my heart cant be the same as last time le.

not tat time you know tat vanessa le.

this few day u did not online audit.

think you must have hide me ba.

think you don wann to see dao me ba.

well i onli can say i have given you up.

i have no feeling for you anymore le.

so don worry.

have a better gal than me ba.

have a same age as you ba.

(: take care.

thanks for the 1month sweet memory tat you given me.

i veri happy during tat 1 month.

tat all!

be happy and let go of you and me.

give each other another chance ba.

next time see if we do have tat fate to meet each other ba.

1/12/10

2010-12-01T03:12:00.000-08:00

you had say out tat word that i wann le.

but i look like you being force to say tat.

when i ask you isit u say no , and u gl me. wth!

haiz.

this is not i wann the answer. ):

i wann you be tat time tat joel which i first noe you.

tat cheerful boy and playful boy (:

i reali miss tat day.

haiz.

but if we patch back why u don wann let ppl noe ?

and now i sms you u don wann reply if not cold towards tu me.

i don like. ):

reali don like it!

29/11/10

2010-11-29T01:26:00.000-08:00

4days and you're back to sg.

saw you online ur msn.

i was happy.

but u still e same don wann talk me.

haiz.

i sad ttm. ):

i was wondering if tat time i didnt say tat words will you say ?

will we be e same ?

calling each other baby and sweet talk tu each other ?

haiz.

i say i wann to give up on you but look like i cant.

cant bear to give up.

haiz.

28/11/10

2010-11-27T19:10:00.000-08:00

today is the third day that u have gone.

is already 1 week and 3day le.

still havent get e answer tat i wann.

ytd i havd think and think already.

did you reali care about this rs.

i don think so.

so i decided to give up on you

which is on 27/11/10.

i been for your answer dao veri tired le.

reali don wann care le.

take care friend.

i happy for tat happy stories that u given me.

i noe i didnt cherish it properly.

maybe is too late for it.

but i have tu say jiayous on ur study.

you still have long way tu go on.

and find a better gal.

take care! (:

26/11/10

2010-11-26T05:35:00.000-08:00

back for posting.

i don noe you got read both post anot lor.

i ask you read and give me answer you say ok.

than till morning nv give me dao. haiz.

today is e first day after you gone for the thing.

i started to miss you. haiz.

ytd nite didnt not slp well.

veri late than slp and midnite keep on wake up see got ur sms anot. ):

haiz. not even 1 sms at all.

just now 6 went to bukit merah there got cut hair with my mother.

after tat my turn tu cut, tat guy keep on say cut short i keep on say no.

so now my behind become like so call short hair le. infornt still e same onli trim abit nia.

but so wired. =.=

tat guy keep on say me and disiao me de.

well tat all for today post.

25/11/10

2010-11-25T01:44:00.000-08:00

Tell me why - BabiiJenii

is a song. is reali look likes us use tu be ):

its been a couple of month since you left my heart behind....

crying all my tears out as my eyes becoming blind.

Nothing feels the same cause l'm so use to being held.

friend would be concerned of me but never would i tell.

That i was getting hurt y the only one i ever loved.

the one who was created to be sent to me from above.

i still don't know what went wrong or why we had to end.

not only were you my baby but you were my best friend.

and now it seems like i've lost everything i ever had.

Everything worth living for flying away from my hands.

living everyday,questioning myself the same thing you left without left me here reminan.

Remember the days we used to share.

When you told me that always and forever you would care.

Now you left me alone holding on the phone.

Hopping things would go back to how it was long ago.

Tell me why?

What made you decide to leave me back ?

Tell me why?

there was nothing that you, you didn't have.

tell me why?

Back when we was younger, we both each made a promise.

Telling each other that we would always be honest.

of how we felt.

what we thought

and soon that day came.

You took my hand, asked me out and walked together in the rain.

We spent hours on the phone, we were close like white on rice.

Playing around, asking me to one day be your wife.

when they saw you they saw me standing right next to you.

matching everyday, matching clothes, matching hat and shoes.

Always deaicating songs, we hear to each other.

Always thinking that all of those days would last forever.

Tell me why everything had to come to this.

you don;t understand there;s so much thing that i miss.

Remember that days we used to share.

when you told me that always and forever you would care.

Now you left me alone holding on to the phone.

Hopping this would go back to how it was long ago.

Tell me why ?

what make you decide to leave me back ?

Tell me why ?

there was nothing that you , you didn't have

Tell me why ?

Whatever happened to the promise you made.

Whatever happened to the future you wanted to create.

Now it's all down the drain all the time we spent, wasted.

Whenever we had problems, we had always fixed and saved it.

so why the change of heart, tell me why are we apart.

When you had told me before that you loved me since the start.

Tell me why suddenly wann leave our past behind.

Baby all i'm asking you is to please tell me why ?

Tell me why ?

Theres so much pain for me to hide inside.

But you don't even notice so theres no use to hide.

I miss the feeling you gave me when you looked into my eyes.

And now when i remember the moment all i'm is cry.

The day you left, Bay, you took my dreams with you.

I can't even rebuild them cause I'm standing alone without you.

Stop giving me all the stories cause i know that they're lies

Just open your heart look into my eyes, and tell me why ?

Tell me why ?

Remember the days we used to share.

When you told me that always and forever you would care.

Now you left me alone holding on to the phone.

Hopping things would go back to how it was long ago.

Tell me why ?

What made you decide to leave me back.

Tell me why ?

there was nothing that you , you didn't have.

Tell me why ?

Remember the days we used to share.

when you told me that always and forever you would care.

Now you left me alon, holding on to the phone.

Hopping things would go back to how it was long ago.

Tell me why ?

What made you decide to leave me back.

Tell me why ?

there was nothing that you , you didn't have.

Tell me why ?

25/11/10

2010-11-25T01:40:00.000-08:00

is have been 1 week le ): you reali have change alot.

you didnt reply like how you use tu reply tat fast.

you didnt like to sms like tat, you didnt tell me the truth.

haiz, 1 week le and tml you have tu left for the thing for 4 days. ):

you still havent tell me the answer toward me ?

i feel that your answer will be no ba. nvm i wont force i let you slowly think ):

when can you let me know the answer ?

23/11/10

2010-11-23T01:06:00.000-08:00

updating blog again.

well i think it gonna be long post for today.

haiz. well lets see what tu start.
on 15 sept. morning when tu take result after tat when tu meet you after tat when to my aunt house.
on tat day we stead <3
i reali miss tat moment!
we have ran through lots of problem.
i very sorry to you.
but do you know ?
tat i work. why i work ?
why i sick ?
coz of you!
i work coz of you and oso for my holiday.
i sick coz i need you tu take care of me. <3>

i quit oso coz of you.

you say i work i nv pei you than i quit tat work.

but in the end you say e feeling towards me had fade le.

what is this ma ?

on 18 i went tu meet you yet u ask me not tu come coz i sick.

but than i say nvm le coz i reali missyou badly.

5 days nv meet you and i had spoil our 1 month. ):

in the end we brk.

even thought i say brk does not mean reali brk ma.

on tat day i nearly cry out.

my hearts feel pain. reali pain.
almost 1 week le. you reali have change into other people which i don noe who isit ?

you say you will cherish this rs de!

you say you nv let go of this rs event we fall de!

haiz now you say all this are all fake wann!

come back will you ?

will you still care me love me and change back which i noe tat joel!

15/11/10

2010-11-15T04:39:00.000-08:00

haiz.

after so long i finally think tat i should post.

this few days alot of things happen.

firstly i wann say sorry tu my baby <3

haiz..

sorry for jealous aiai and u.

haiz.

next is my work.

i need tu say sorry tu u coz of this.

not onli ur feeling fade same tu me.

haiz.

well today is our 1st month yet i cant take off i sorry about tat too.

haiz.

will be working till tuesday. haiz.

tat all.

sorry baby.

iloveyou tothemax!

23/10/2010

2010-10-23T06:04:00.000-07:00

its been so long tat i posr it .
now my blog is dead.

ytd just marry wif my baby in audit <3
somemore is at cube.
alot of people helping us tu play (:
tml is e event for e fam le.
and i still don noe wann go anot
coz tml need tu go out wif my parent. haiz

tat all.
lazy tu post (:

13/10/10

2010-10-12T17:35:00.000-07:00

its been so long since i post on e blog.

on monday onward i don need and won't go tu sch coz Nlevels had finish!

wake up at 7 plus.

after my didi leave house for few min and i woke up.

my mother pass me com and i play till now.

later meeting wenxin and go tu pom house for fam meeting.

tat all.

29sept2010

2010-09-29T04:27:00.000-07:00

back for posting le.

look like long time did not not post for it and my blog dead le. ):

this few days busy with Nlevels.

next week Nlevels will start and e first paper is science.

tat all for today coz i lazy tu post le.

17augest10

2010-08-17T04:41:00.000-07:00

back for posting.

long time didnt post le.

this few days having perlim till yesterday. and it will continue on sept and oct but not now.

mondays cpa were abit hard coz i don noe how tu do e graphic and maths is supeeeerrr duppper kann f!@$# hard! coz some of the question teacher didnt even teach untill. what is this ma.

tat all.

will continue next time (:

31/07/10

2010-07-31T01:13:00.000-07:00

guess starting of june. i should not meet u all as a fam outing. should not let u fall in love in with me. should not let u tio hurt.

sorry for all this month of caring and sayang me.

jie is rite.

maybe i should give u chance but. i just cant give.

i don noe why. just don noe why.

maybe scare ba.

haiz.

now i feeling down.

i really don wann talk about r/s le.

very down.

who can cheer me up ?

guess no 1 ba.

i should take all e blame ba.

31/07/10

2010-07-31T00:41:00.000-07:00

haix.

is it i the cause of this problem?

why cant i granted jie e wish leh ?

haiz.

should be gone e 1 should be me ba.

haix

sorry all e causing that i make.

2010-07-30T02:41:00.000-07:00

last time went tu hl wedding and my baby e friend e wedding.

28/07/10

2010-07-28T04:54:00.000-07:00

back for posting.

jie! reali miss you leh!

haix. didnt not sms for 4 days le. reali cant get use of e feeling like how u use tu sms me every morning.

i now feeling veri down.

can u tell me wat tu do in my dream ?

best jie in e world.

sorry tat didnt noe sms u e last sms tu u.

veri sorry. veri regrets.

hope tu see u in my dreams and tell me wat tu do.

27/07/10

2010-07-27T03:00:00.001-07:00

for my beloved jie!
is lyke u gone too sudden le.
all of us reali cant accept it.
u didnt sms us e last word and u just leave us without saying.

still remember this sms tat we alway use tu msg ?

jie - vanessa. I hope you will forget about cloud. i can see you still got feeling toward him. but i am now with him. i hope you understand.
me - who you ? selina ?
jie - ya
me - u will nv understand de about this feeling.
jie - i will understand it. we are girl. the feeling of your love leaving you to another girl.
me - x.x haix. is just tat boy keep on playing e feeling. just lyke him.
jie- but what about your e. he look like he dont play feeling de. he is a good guy. but just look like annoying onli.
me - nia. dib talk about him. no feeling toward him. how you get my number de ?
jie - your facebook de phone book. i see no feeling toward him. feeling can be create back de.
me - x.x nia. i don wann. but u still don understand my feeling de even though we are gal.
jie - so tell me how is the feeling ? i got 1 ex. he play dao very bad. i dont know how tu sae. but the feeling is just veri bad.
me- u noe this feeling i have is 2nd time le. being play by other ppl.
jie - that is why you should choose a guy who is really faithful. though break le. can also start a new. my ex once play me. he got 2 gal outside i dint know. he still sweettalk to meand ask me help him do thing. i help him and love him but one day he just throw me away and sae he got his real lover le. haix.
me - haix~gal is alway lyke tat being play by other boy.
jie- but there are some boy who are really faithful. that is veri hard to find. even some they treat you veri good. but after few month they will throw away you. and after they do tat they dont feel anything. those who are faithful are those tat once break their promise but after that they try tu chase her back their lover. even if the gal is loving another guy already. that is the type of guy who is reali faithful. you should get hold of it.
me - haix~wtf la. haix. why every1 wann me patch back wif him. i just don wann. coz no feeling.
jie - no one force you. but just want you to know that is a wonderful guy that is really loving you beside you. yes you might not have feeling toward him. but if one day he try to protect you and get kill ? you will know that you just lost a very good guy who does not play with people feeling. to tell the truth. your ex, he is shy. he dont show his care out directly. when he is being xianlan or guai lan to someone he know, but actually he is showing his care but in a directly way.
me - just don talk about him. now hating him. dont let me hate you again x.x
jie - okay fine. just want to tell you that good guy are around you that you dont know only. what happen that he make you so hate him ?
me - he keep on smsing me and fan me. which is after we brk than i stead wif dick that time he oso keep on sms - ing me. is so annoying!
jie- you kow why is he being so annoying ? is beacause he care about you. he stll love you. breaking with you might have a reason behind it but i don see why he love you so much and he still break. dick told me tat your ex break with you cause he want you to forcus on your study because he sae you are easily distract if there is anyone around you. he reali think about you and your future he want you study well first than get you back.
jie - now i going to say something i think you will hate me that is. i think i know why he want you to get back to him, that is bacause he dont want you tu get hurt from other boy out there playing girl feeling. he know that i and dick and you will hate him. if he told you that time that i and dick stead and dick brk up with you is because of me. but still he still tell you the truth and make you hate him more. he is carrying the burden to let you knoe the truth than to keep you in the dark when he know what happen.
me - nia. he does not even noe that u and stead. dick tell him that he had no feeling for me. but why should dick still bluff me tat he don have stead le. after dick and i brk? i noe tat u 2 stead. why cant sae out the truth le ? haix~after all u still e 3rd party.
jie- your ex know after 2 day later after dick break with you.i ask your ex something about dick. that was when he ask me if i was steading with dick. i gave out myself out and let him found out. i tell him not to tell anyone. but still he told you. he know what actually happen about dick break wif you. because the day dick break with you was to be with me. that was the real reason. your ex know about it and he told you about it. because he dont want you to be hidden in the dark. dick tell not to tell anyone untill after our first month. we are hidding our relationship because dick break up with you and he dont want you tu hate me that wy he did that.
jie - if you notice something. that is dick break wif you say he was the third party and give up. he use that as a reason to leave you and the onli way he can do it is to use yours as a shield. dick use your ex.
me - i noe. haix~i still noe tat 1 month u both gonna do------ rite ?
jie - ----- after one month than we are going to tell people that i and dick stead for one month le.

me - do ----- la. he tell me de.

jie- wth la. he told you that. that one he shouldnt say it... haix. later i go scold him. but still. i believe that you ex also did that to you right.

me- x.x yea. he tat still ask me tu help him. don tell him this hor. but i rejected him le.

jie- orh... but your ex ? i believe he got do to make you --------- ?

me - being force.

me - and wth did u tell dick tat thing ?

jie - nevermnd i wont blame you. you help me or else i wont even know. i will scold him. how dare he.

me - haha! he sae me evil queen.

jie- you and ur ex really like the same. one like evil king and one like evil queen. btw vanessa. why don you talk to your ex nicely. you will know tat he will talk back nicely. now because of no feeling toward him and ingnore him. try talking to him nicely. try it.

me - nia. don wann. i and him nth tu sae.

jie - that e point you two dont have anything to talk. why not just chat with him. any topic will do. you will find out his real side. deep inside him is full of inhappiness. he is being annoying all this is to hide his real side. and don want you to know about his real side or let his real side affect you. that why he keep on disturb people talk to people joking around all this.

me - i noe his real side. sianz . i don wann sae anything about dick le la. he blaming me.

jie- just now i talking about your ex not dick. i also lazy talk to dick now. abit unhappy.

me - x.x

me - sorry for making u unhappy. should not tell u tat.

jie - i saying your ex just now. your ex is a full of unhappiness person is to hide from you. he don want his unhappiness affect you and him. that why is choose to act stupid and bad person.

me - aiya . stop saying about him. the more u sae e more i hate him.

jie - no actually i should be happy because i don like be hide in the dark. and no girl like their boy to hide thing from them. thx vanessa.

me - same lor. but dick sometime hide thing. he does not wann us to noe. he die le ma ?

jie - why hate him. you hate him mean you still have abit of feeling toward him. if you don like him you should have ingnore him. that it because you hate him is you still have some feeling but don wann admit it so you turn love into hate for him. you will not agree with me vanessa. but i know all this more than you. your heat hide thing from you which you do not jnow even for yourself. instead of hating why not change.

jie - die what ? i just lie to him say i go slp but actually abit angry at him want ingnore him alwhil. tomorrow will be fine already.

me - nia don wann. toward him i have no feeling le. so hate or ingnore does not matter anymore le.

me - he say he going tu die le .

jie - you say you not feeling. but there is still feeling. in love. you will say no feeling all this. all are lying to yourself because it is your heart playing trick on you . your heart play a big role in love. your heart can hide your ture feeling or open your true feeling.

jie- than let him die awhile. he dare die i comfirm go hell hunt him. i will hunt my bii de haha.

me - haha. haix. i don noe. does tat care ? what if i say i now still got feeling for dick ?

jie - i cant say anything about you having feeling for dick. i know that . but dont you think you doing this is like your ex ? still having feeling for love one. that is love cycle. trust me. try to give your ex a very last chance. he blew it than his gone.

me - no thanks. not gonna give him a chance le. say e truth i was e same secdonary school as him. i like him be4 in secdonary. at first i don believe him. he told me that he love me for 4 years le since i was in primary school. than slowly i started to accept dick as a stead. but didnt stead for 1 week jiu brk wif me and stead with u le. i could not take it as first when u and him stead. i was emo for e 3 days.

jie - but when you write thing on facebook. your ex is the one there for you. a boy saying he love you for 4 year is cheating someone feeling. because if he did why now than ask for stead and not withen a week go with another girl that is the truth guy that every girl want. you can keep reject him a lot of time but he wont give up on you.

me - i don noe wat tu do.

jie - see you now is trying to understand it ? you are being hide in the dark by ur heart. to tell the truth dick is a type of person that is abit unfaithful to girl . but i will control him and make sure he dont anyhow.

me - hope i can understand ba. trying tu forget about him.

jie - you should forget about dick . even he go back to you. the same thing will happen again. your ex is alway there for you. i want know something this few day did your ex try to do anything to you ?

me - who ?

jie - your ex? did he try to talk to you anything ? or give you anything?

me - yes. he give me a ring. but i don wann to accept it. not gonna accept his ring.

jie - wat kind of ring? anything on it ?

me - couple ring. don have thing on it.

me- aiya stop saying about rs le. wann study better for my result. than go better ite. x.x

jie - to say the truth. i will say that you are abit stubborn. you know the meaning of ring ? that he gave to you ? for a guy to break wif girl. and if the guy wann patch back normally they will give flower. but ring is different. when nothing is on the ring and he give it to you. mean start over a new.

jie - so you going which ite ?

me - yea i noe. but i don wann. still don noe which ite le. maybe seimei or cck ite.

jie- go cck ite. that is bette. all the ite lose to cck ite. not because it is new. but inside got alot of good teacher and system. seimei lose already. vanessa i wont say anything about relationship le . but one final thing. you be single untill your exam is over focus on your study first. your ex is still there waiting for you. give him a chance?

me- okay. not gonna give him a chance but tu accept other ppl. thanks alot (:

jie- no no no. you got it wrong. i mean give your ex a chance first. promise me that you will do it and stay single for the time being untill your exam is over ?

me - okay. i noe wat u mean. but i say be4 le. not gonna accept him. and try to forget him.

jie - haix. your really stubborn. why wont you listen to me. the one you should forget is dick and the one to give a chance is ur ex.

me - aiya i noe wat tu do de. after N than sae this ba.

jie - okay but keep this is mind. good luck for your studies. you should go back get rest le . tomorrow no engergy to forcus on studies. no matter what happen tu me and dick. you should never give dick a chance. never give a dick a chance to go back to you.

me - haha okay. thanks alot (:

jie - your welcome. helping you is my part as a girl. :) age of 16 in secdonary school. there are alot of thing you will never understand. but when your 17 and not in secdonary school anymore. you will know alot of change. thaat is why i will help you with your rs.

me- haha! okay. (:

jie - okay go sleep bah :) want chat than sms me anytime i will welcome you.

me- okay. nites nites.

jie- nites vanessa :)

me - same tu u .

jie - ya i will go sleep to le.

will i be able tu see u in ite again.

end of day 1.

27/7/10

2010-07-27T01:00:00.000-07:00

why is the god not fair to us!?

why must their take u away!

why must be u!?

u are my best jie tat i nv meet be4.

started tat time i jealous coz u stead wif him.

but now i nv le.

and sorry tat i e 1 who causing u both tu quarrel!

i reali feel bad tat i didnt reply u e last sms tat u send tu me on sat!

sorry!!

jie iloveyou!!

u e best jie in my life!

but why e god must take u away.

why!!

25/07/10

2010-07-24T16:59:00.000-07:00

now is 8 in e morning.

and i just wake up at 7 plus.

don noe why wake up so early.

baby do you love me ma ?

i cant feel your love toward me ?

ytd ask u basic question ur answer is dk.

haix~saddieme le.

last time u use tu call me baby now call me vanessa.

wat does this mean ?

we just a normal friend ?

or wat ?

dk wat tu do.

suddenly love you and miss you to e max le.

haix~

is it my hot temper tat i give you ytd.

and u scare le ?

my heart reali brks when i ask u basic question.

haix.

23/07/10

2010-07-23T03:42:00.000-07:00

just level up my audit.
i play for 5 rounds of lic.
after 5 rounds i pass.
coz e last round i keep on chain.
lyke no need money lai tat. :X

tats all.
bye all.
lastly iloveyou baby benjamin (: